Dear Children

Dear Children:

You have given me the greatest gift I never dreamed possible.

 You all are my first loves’, my biggest achievement and joy.

Even though you all have grown to be individuals. Your victories are mine.

Your sadness is my despair and your happiness is my delight.

Once we were melted in the same flesh but now you all have grown to explore the world as you see fit.

 Without your existence I would have been a mere shadow of a person.

Never think any one of you have disappointed me for you all are and always will be the pride of heart.

Through an imperfect existence, in giving birth to you all I have managed perfection at it’s finest.

Many people wait till near death to express their feelings, however, I am very much alive and shout my proclamations of love to admiration to my children.

Separate but yet one we share a connection that will never be broken.

In reality Mother’s give birth, however, I wish to say thank you to my children for giving birth to “my” existential life.

 You all have taught me more about myself than I could have ever discovered on my own.

                                                To- Joey- Brandyn-Jesse- Serena and Bibiana

                                                                        (From Mom)

Lisamarie Akins/Simora England

Love Letter

I feel now what I did back when I was a mere little girl.

 On a cold winter’s day I laid curled and snug in my blanket.

 I was as I am now, safe and secure in my cocoon.

There’s a sharp chill that nips at my nose, which is the only thing exposed as I the smell breakfast lingering in the air, which eventually enticed me out of bed.

In the present time, my eyes slightly tilts open as the smell of fresh roasted coffee glides throughout the house and pulls at my senses.

 I feel a warm hand caress my cheek, as he waves goodbye to leave for work.

  And with that simple action he performs everyday unceasingly, I know that I am loved.

 He is my partner, friend confidante and companion.

His blue eyes liken to that of the sea which calms my inner torment and impedes the pain within my soul.

There’s no greater feeling that one can experience, in knowing that you are cherished and admired by the person with whom you share your life.

While most of us are forced to grow old with life’s undying storms, my love lets me know that it is okay to be the little girl I once and restores my child-like heart.

We balance each other’s strengths while comforting one another, in our shared adversities.

While I realize that throughout our journey together there will be disappointments, anger and sadness, there will never be regret; for in my eyes he is made for me and I for him.

 This is my love letter to the one who makes me want to strive for perfection so that I can be the best ME for myself.

 I realize that one day our journey will end, that unexpected day where death comes knocking at our door, however, I take consolation in knowing that our separation will only be for a while.

 When that day comes, we will be reunited in the realm of eternity and will bask in the warm seductive light of infinity never to part again.

I’m honored to share with you my entire love letter, in hopes that with these words it may touch someone’s soul to preserve and endure life’s battles and fight for love because it does conquer all.                   (To Shane- my love, comforter and companion)

                                                                      Love Always-Lisamarie Akins/Simora England

Affirmation

Today I awoke-with a sense of sureness and was unafraid or indifferent by insecurities, which I have struggled with all my life.

Today I awoke replenished and refreshed with a firm confirmation of freedom as I cast  off all doubts and worries. 

With a contrite contrition, I vow to not obsess or absorb any negative energy, which may come my way.

Today I awoke, in a state of determination with the goal of achieving transformation by being a better version of myself. 

I will strive to reach heights that I had only envisioned within the depths of my fantasies.

Today I awoke feeling loved, safe and respected.

 In my partners arms I stand with conviction knowing that my happiness begins with me.

                                            LM Akins-Simora England